I still get sad whenever someone mentions it. Still affected. I don't know why but I just feel like shit all over again. And I really hate feeling this way, hate myself even more for feeling this way. It's like I'm some hungover idiot. I didn't know I was this weak, really. Seriously, why? I'm so fucking weak and I hate it!!!!

Benny is the best, seriously. I really really appreciate him so much for always initiating a htht with me whenever he sees my emo nemo tweets, so much so that we've gone from distant friends to htht buddies.

Sometimes, I just really want to voice out my thoughts and tweet them out. I did try that but then you didn't initiate any conversation with me through any means, be it a direct tweet reply or in msn. And I know that you read my tweet because you yourself said that you do read your timeline, so why? I thought we had something. Was I wrong? Did you not feel anything at all? If so, then I'm sorry for being stupid, for being a burden. But why can't you tell me straight in my face instead of making the "fade away" effect by not talking to me?

There's so many things that I want to say to you but I can't reach you anymore. Fuck you... Fuck I just realised that throughout this post, my thoughts were alternating between 2 people. Yeah fuck this goes out to both of you okay.

Cb what's with guys and the fucking "fade away" effect? Fucked up. And what the fuck is with me being so weak? Fucking loser.