I feel so empty. I don't think I've ever felt this way before. From Matt, it was just shitty but this... I don't even know what's going through my head. I just keep thinking of running away, far away from my mum. Enjoying my alone time at home now and then, by the time she comes back I'd already be out partying the night away. That's the only thought in my head since just now. I honestly don't have any feel for partying at all tonight cause I'm so sick of drinking but if it's to run away from my mum, then fuck my liver for all I care.

And I don't even know who's here for me. Seems like nobody is. Given my tweets, people should be able to tell that I'm going through a rough time. But they can still pester me about guestlist, drinks, better yet Diablo 3. Fuck lah guys. You guys seriously only look for me when y'all need me right? Need a playmate, a party companion, a guestlist owner. I really don't wna be alone right now but I don't want you guys pestering me about shits you guys need. I just want someone to care even for a bit, care enough to not make me feel alone. I just feel so alone and empty now and I can't think of anyone I can talk to about this so guys, y'all know where you stand lah. Now that I can't even think of anyone to confide in...

I'm a burden k. A lonely, empty, burden.