Bad timing
I was taking a nap and guess who woke me up with a call? Mindfucked. Again. Seriously don't know what you want from me. You come then go, come again then go again. Wow, really? I just wish I know what you're thinking really. THEN AFTERS, received a text from him. Seriously damn mindfucked. Why is my life revolving around the same guys and why are they so alike?! Why are y'all doing this to me why?! Cb do I deserve this?! Come and go as and when you like. Fuck you! Ya fuck you! Walao mehhhh...
But honestly when Shasha asked me that question, I knew my answer. But it's funny. I find myself funny. And stupid too. It's like, I put in too much effort and always end up getting nothing, sometimes getting shit even. Not clubbing for 1 week because a guy told me not to, going all the way down to a guy's place late night just to clear a misunderstanding. I know I'm making myself sound so stupid but it seems I'm really the kind to go hard, then fall hard. I haven't gotten any stronger really. Still a weak and easy crybaby. Fuck my life. Fuck this shit!!!
Sometimes I think, since I'm so easy and weak, if a nice new guy comes into my life maybe I will end up liking him too. Then isn't it good?! He likes me, I end up liking him, it becomes mutual, I forget all the past shit. God, I'm making it sound so easy and perfect but this is never the case. Ya fuck life! Nothing ever turns out the way you want it to. NOTHING.
Ciao, goodnight.
But honestly when Shasha asked me that question, I knew my answer. But it's funny. I find myself funny. And stupid too. It's like, I put in too much effort and always end up getting nothing, sometimes getting shit even. Not clubbing for 1 week because a guy told me not to, going all the way down to a guy's place late night just to clear a misunderstanding. I know I'm making myself sound so stupid but it seems I'm really the kind to go hard, then fall hard. I haven't gotten any stronger really. Still a weak and easy crybaby. Fuck my life. Fuck this shit!!!
Sometimes I think, since I'm so easy and weak, if a nice new guy comes into my life maybe I will end up liking him too. Then isn't it good?! He likes me, I end up liking him, it becomes mutual, I forget all the past shit. God, I'm making it sound so easy and perfect but this is never the case. Ya fuck life! Nothing ever turns out the way you want it to. NOTHING.
Ciao, goodnight.