Leaking tap
Really so tired... Again. I'm damn weak. But only Dora knows everything cause she's the only one who got to read my blog drafts. Haha smart her, pointed at me and guessed, "See you this kind... Confirm the blog a lot of drafts one right?!".
And she's the only one who knows that feeling too. That feeling when you suddenly wake up, with no idea what time it is, you just wake up feeling so lost. I do feel lost too but mostly before I sleep though. That moment when you're staying up for no reason, but purely because you can't sleep and then your mind decides to toy with you by reminding you of everything you've been trying to forget and move on from. And more than reminding, then helps think up what-if scenarios just so you'll feel even more dejected, as if there's more to be lost, more to mourn over.
I know it's unhealthy to be dwelling on the past and it's pathetic to be the only one still lost in time but... I don't know. I really don't uh. I don't know what I'm doing because I don't know what I want... Hahaha cb this fucking compricatedz shitz. But ultimately, there's only one person on my mind to be honest, and he's the one everyone least expects. So... Ya.
Ciao.
And she's the only one who knows that feeling too. That feeling when you suddenly wake up, with no idea what time it is, you just wake up feeling so lost. I do feel lost too but mostly before I sleep though. That moment when you're staying up for no reason, but purely because you can't sleep and then your mind decides to toy with you by reminding you of everything you've been trying to forget and move on from. And more than reminding, then helps think up what-if scenarios just so you'll feel even more dejected, as if there's more to be lost, more to mourn over.
How different would things be if some things didn't happen?
What if I could turn back time?
How would I have avoided the twist of events?
Maybe it's actually possible for things to work out?
If so, till now? Possibly, even longer maybe?
I know it's unhealthy to be dwelling on the past and it's pathetic to be the only one still lost in time but... I don't know. I really don't uh. I don't know what I'm doing because I don't know what I want... Hahaha cb this fucking compricatedz shitz. But ultimately, there's only one person on my mind to be honest, and he's the one everyone least expects. So... Ya.
Ciao.