Torn

Really couldn't control myself last night. Didnt' puke or anything but I really smoked alot... I seriously need to stop this self-abandonment shit I pull everytime I'm affected by something, or someone. So many invites to different clubs tonight but honestly, I just feel like lying in bed and crying my heart out. There's just something about me that causes peoples' interest in me to finish depreciating within a week.

Nothing's fine I'm torn,  I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed, lying naked on the floor 
Illusion never changed into something real 
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn 
You're a little late, I'm already torn.