Fix me

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

I'm so tired. I really really am... I don't like the regularity of our tiffs these days. And I just don't understand. Is it intern? Can I blame internship? Or is it just me? Maybe I'm someone who's difficult to understand?

It's like I always try so hard at everything but no one ever sees anything. I get so much tips and hand written cards from guests and my supervisors don't see these. I try so hard to finish my work earlier despite a late knock-off time just so I'll get to text you a bit, in the hope of catching you before you fall asleep but do you see it? Nobody sees me sweaty and stinky in that thick black uniform, supposedly neat bun all unkempt and loose.

Why is this so hard? I've come so far, just 33 more days to go. And I'm even more tired than ever before, I just need a reason, a person to help me through this last lap. The last thing I need is crying myself to sleep, really. 

Lights will guide you homeAnd ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you

Somebody, please, fix me. Cause I'm one hell of a helpless, lost mess with nothing but a tired, aching soul and a tear-stained face.