Where'd you go

Some days, it doesn't affect me. And then there are worse days contrary to those, like today. Right now when I'm alone and overthinking, to be precise. I've come across quite a number of guys in my life, some more involved than the others but that's just it. They all just turned out to be phases, none really a part of my life. I wouldn't call them "bad" guys because really, they were all pretty nice guys. So it got me wondering, why did I let them pass me by? Au was a nice guy, so was Oh, Am, Eh, Ng for sure and Oo to the point that I can imagine us together for a long time and I'll still be happy. I don't even understand myself sometimes. Like wtf was I thinking and doing back then? Ha like I'll ever get to find out. If given a chance I'd gladly turn off my humanity, emotions be damned.