Distance

Hello, hello, wow it's been so long eh. I don't even know who I'm greeting I think I'm just greeting my blog ah hahaha. Haven't slept at all today, feeling a mixture of excitement and anxiety from the thought of visiting my dad's grave in a bit. The right thing to do will be to stay strong as a support pillar for my mum and not cry but at this point I can't imagine how I myself will be like, returning there after so long. Will I cry? I think to cry will be the only normal thing to do right? Shit fuck now it's just pure anxiety. Please be good to me, Monday.