Please don't be in love with someone else

I think, (Deep breath) I really do like him alot. Probably from the first time we met and then as quickly as that, I was probably genuinely sad after seeing him make out with Rachel in the club. I could've gotten over him easily, just like how I got over yc. My night would've been awesome if not for jidi. Jidi told me that Matt really likes me. But then it seems like he's gotten over me. I don't know whether or not to trust Jidi because Matt did told me he liked me. And now I'm confused all over again. Seriously Matt, I can just spend forever, wondering if you know I was enchanted to meet you. I miss everything about you and when I saw Marvin at the basketball match the other day, I was so close to breaking down in tears because everything about him reminded me of you. The hair, the body language and all.

I wonder if you still think of me. I wonder what happened to my shirt, if it's chucked carelessly underneath your bed or hung up nicely in your closet.

I was there again tonight. Where we first met, the bridge, then zirca. You don't know how desperately I scanned the entire club in search of you after seeing Jidi and Germ, hoping so badly that you went along with them as usual. But nah, you didn't. And I honestly was more sad than relieved. Just the sight of you would probably have made my night, no matter if it's just seeing your face or seeing you make out with some girl. But fuck, my thoughts were lack of you until I saw them.

Please don't be in love with someone else.