It's over, and I'll get over this

It's been a rough night. I've never cried so bad for so long before. Met up with Jidi to smoke some shit at Matt/ Sam's place. Smoked up with Jidi, Mel, Jes and Sam before I calmed the fuck down and was ready to meet Matt. All of them like went to another table and all just so we could talk. And we talked for 2 hours, even after they left. Sam went to send them off and I guess she purposely took so fucking long so I could talk to Matt lah. Talked for 2 hours. Cried for 2 hours too. And on the cab, and now still, so I probably cried for almost 3 fucking hours.

And ya, it's over lah. It's been a fucking rough night lah. Just nice when Sam came back, Alik called so I went to one side to talk to her. The first time she heard me crying over the phone lah sia haha fuck. I told her that I just blame myself for being so easy, falling so hard and end up hurting myself so bad because really this fucking hurts lah. Fucking cried so bad and still am even right now but ya. There's nothing I can fucking do lah.

We all decided to go home and get some fucking rest and I decided to cab home so Sam and Matt walked me to the gate and then Matt walked me all the way out, Sam saying he wants to talk to me all. So ya we did. Said alot of things. And then he said that really, his ex, Rachel all never come down to talk about this shit before so ya. I don't know why the fuck he told me that for lah fuck made me feel even more shitty k.

Smoked shit, smoked sticks on the cab, smoking now. Ah fuck it.

Anyway I really really thank Sam and Jidi so much for all that they've done for me lah. Barely know them but they're willing to do this much for me. Coolest couple in the whole fucking world. Next time must buy some shit and have a crazy smoke up sesh.