Living young, wild and free
Too young to be tied down. I'm just gonna go back to clubbing and partying wildly. Makes me wonder if the fault lies with me, if it's me who's not worth shit. But it doesn't matter anymore. Nothing matters anymore. The thing about clubbing is like, it's a 4h getaway from reality. Then you go home, still not completely sober, and sleep like a baby, before you wake up the next day to reality's slap in your face. That feeling in the morning I swear, is worse than any hangover anyone can get. A hangover goes away sooner or later for sure, but that feeling can only go away for 4h.
Not sure if people are just being nice or sincerely honest. I've heard too many times, things like "You deserve much better, really. Never settle for less than what you deserve because you deserve so much more than this." BUT IF IT TAKES FALLING DOWN AGAIN AND AGAIN COUNTLESS OF TIMES BEFORE GETTING WHAT I DESERVE, THEN WOW, I MUST REALLY DESERVE ALOT HUH IN ORDER TO COMPENSATE FOR ALL THESE SHIT I'VE PUT UP WITH UP TILL NOW.
I'm fed up, okay? And frustrated, doubtful, confused, paranoid, just one crazy insecure wreck. I know you guys really do try to cheer me up and make me feel worthy and honestly I don't care if you guys mean it or not. I feel touched I swear, but no matter how many times anyone says it, it doesn't seem like things are changing for the better. Words are just... Words.
P/S FUCK MY WALLPAPER. I CHANGED IT ALREADY. UNWAVERING DETERMINATION TO MOVE ON CAUSE I'M STRONG LIKE THAT.
Not sure if people are just being nice or sincerely honest. I've heard too many times, things like "You deserve much better, really. Never settle for less than what you deserve because you deserve so much more than this." BUT IF IT TAKES FALLING DOWN AGAIN AND AGAIN COUNTLESS OF TIMES BEFORE GETTING WHAT I DESERVE, THEN WOW, I MUST REALLY DESERVE ALOT HUH IN ORDER TO COMPENSATE FOR ALL THESE SHIT I'VE PUT UP WITH UP TILL NOW.
I'm fed up, okay? And frustrated, doubtful, confused, paranoid, just one crazy insecure wreck. I know you guys really do try to cheer me up and make me feel worthy and honestly I don't care if you guys mean it or not. I feel touched I swear, but no matter how many times anyone says it, it doesn't seem like things are changing for the better. Words are just... Words.
P/S FUCK MY WALLPAPER. I CHANGED IT ALREADY. UNWAVERING DETERMINATION TO MOVE ON CAUSE I'M STRONG LIKE THAT.