A dearest's 20th

Just got home from a pretty successful 20th birthday surprise for a dear friend. Underneath the initial awkwardness was a just as successful effort in concealing it with my usual jokes and antics. I am honestly sad to say that every single time we come to the end of a conversation, I find myself panicking thinking, "Oh shit, ok Hayati what's next what should you say now?" But surprisingly, Steffie helped made it better with her consistent jokes and laughter.

I tried super hard to hold back my tears while writing my truly heartfelt card to her and I really hoped it touched her as much as the memories that came to my mind touched me. Though the girl, whom I recall was the first to talk to me on the first day of our secondary school life, and I have drifted so far, maybe too far to even be remembered as a friend, I hope that the short time that we spent together maturing ever so slightly will serve as bittersweet remembrance of our then 'tight' friendship.

Amidst the countless friends I've made during my 4 years in Nan Hua, those who I thought were forever, seemingly my then 'tight' guy cliques, are now nothing but vague memories. You however, have been the one to send me birthday messages even after Nan Hua and you have no idea how much it means to me.

I meant every single written word in the card and I from the bottom of my heart, wish you a great 20th, that may your Chapter 2 be the door to greater happiness and love eternally in your life because I can swear on my life that you deserve that much.

Too much love x "Shubbie"