Future

Welcome to one of those days where I feel anxious about my future. Alik says it's normal, a sign of maturity. I won't say it was triggered by SGFW cause I've actually noticed this all along. That even though I like fashion, I find myself experiencing moments of "Wtf is this? If this is fashion, then I really don't get fashion afterall." I heard Shantal say that her end-goal in life is fashion and that really earned my respect and admiration. Unlike her, I feel like I'm lacking the passion to see it as my end-goal. In fact, I don't even feel passionate enough to see anything as my end-goal. I feel like I'm blinded and lost and I can't even see my own future. Fashion is my interest, yes. But is there enough to call it "passion"? I think my fear of commitment is at play here. It's the same when it comes to me pursuing greater education. Even though I really want to improve myself and be a degree holder just like majority everyone else, I can't see myself sustaining anything for long. I try so hard but I just don't see my future self. 

What do I want to do? 

Who do I want to be? 

Where am I headed?