Cut you

I'm so tired. Seriously I know I started this blog with the intention to rant and vent, evident from the irony in my blog title yknow, like good FUCKING vibes? Pfft. But it's getting bleaker as this continues and there's hardly even a hint of any good vibe anymore. But what can I do right? This is my only channel for the rainy days. 

I haven't been sleeping well. I've hardly been sleeping. I just can't sleep, no matter in my room or the living room. But when I do fall asleep, I want to wake right up cause I'll be having nightmares. 

During the day, work doesn't help make things easier and I know I'm prickly. I'm irritable. I feel like I'm a walking messy ball of barb wire. I want to meet my friends, hang out, laugh, get some positive energy, but I'm just so fucking tired that I choose to go home and be the antisocial I never was. 

I don't want this to go on. I'm so fucking frustrated why can't I sleep?! I'm so cranky and I'm not liking this me. I just want the sleep to come and the nightmares to go away.