Noise

Ha... No offence to all married or engaged or however else attached people, whether you're my friend or colleague or just whatever lah, I respect the fact that you are happily living your lives with your better halves and I completely understand if you're feeling immense happiness like never before, but please don't try to sell me the idea of your lives. I seriously fucking dread married life and BTO talk. Seriously it's your life man you do you and don't make me a part of it please. It's so annoying and hypocritical when someone occasionally tells me the bad episodes and yet on better days, tries to sell me that same idea.

Also, I cannot understand clients wanting to introduce their sons or colleagues to me... I know you think I may be compatible with whoever you have in mind but you are only seeing the business side of me which admittedly happens to be my best side ok? I know it looks like I'm inevitably single but believe me, it is a choice.

I haven't been just looking in the mirror during my past 5 years of being single. I have been looking at my surroundings too, at both singles and couples. Therefore I am now cock sure of my good and bad, and my wants and don't wants in a partner. Honestly I am aware that my new found clarity has definitely raised the bar in finding a desirable partner but that's just how it is for me. I am just that clear on what I want for myself. 

I say I'm anti-commitment but in actual fact, I just don't want to waste any time for trial and error with some questionable prospect. I am also super against seeing someone introduced by a mutual acquaintance cause that just gives me more pressure to not fuck up and I just don't enjoy that not so subtle weight on my shoulders. I believe in myself to find someone who will be a good match for myself because I only have absolute faith in myself. Then if all is well, I will naturally feel inclined to committing to that person. Well to put it harshly, sorry but I don't want to entrust my future to any of my friends and acquaintances haha oops.

I understand the concerns from those who are close to my age and yet are already settled down but please, don't. I have my pace, you have yours. I am perfectly contented with my life now. I have a good amount of self love and it has not been diminishing with the passing of years of singlehood. If you really care about me, please just watch me from afar and don't try to enforce any ideas or intervene with my life.

I love myself and my life.